You know what’s not fun? Feeling like you’re messing up. Often. And feeling like things are out of your control. Definitely dealing with a lot of both of these lately as things in both work and life are just a bit too chaotic. I’m trying so hard to let go of the things I can’t control right now, recognizing there is nothing I can do to change the situation, only my reaction.
But dealing with making stupid little mistakes over and over because I’m moving too fast, doing too much, is just wearing me down. I don’t have the time to be as diligent as I’d like, and I know I should be a little easier on myself in the face of it, but that just isn’t how I function. I judge myself harshly.
So this afternoon I’m trying to take some deep breaths, look out the window a little more, build in some time to do some quick sketches, and just… let go a bit. And hopefully in the near future things won’t be quite so unsettled, quite so ridiculously busy, and I won’t be feeling stretched far, far too thin as I am at this moment in time.